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Okay, so the past week or so I've had 3 main feelings. I've had happiness, anger, and sadness. Obviously, I prefer happiness over the other two, so when people cause me to drift into the other two emotions, I tend to act like an asshole, or shut myself off from the rest of the world.

So just quickly to sum up what's happening in my life. So the whole shit with my ex. It's still kinda weird. I think she still has feelings, and has said so. I still love her. She says it just wouldn't work, for a bunch of reasons. I don't know whether to believe her, cause I can throw most of them out. She says she really cares about what her family thinks, and I'm not exactly "cool" in their books. Well if you think of it that way, why don't you tell your family how you're gonna lie to them saying "I'm going to my friends house for a sleepover", when in fact you're going clubbing, and doing ecstasy, trying to hook up with some guy. When you look at it that way, I'm a fucking angel. She asked some people, and they said we shouldn't get back together... Cause those friends probably don't really like me, since I have a problem with trusting people. But put that all away, we kinda fool around with each other first 2 periods we have together sometimes. Fucked up thing is, she acts like herself then, but when we're around other people, she acts like she barely knows me. Don't know what that's all about, or what she's trying to prove but whatever.

Next thing, that really pisses me off is this French girl. She came from France, and ever since she first saw me, she fucking fell in love with me. Why I don't know. I was going out with my ex when she tried to make a move on me. So obviously I made it quite obvious, like kissing her right in front of the girl to get the point across. After we break up, she starts talking to me more (hmm wonder why). So then on Valentines Day, I go upstairs to get my stuff, and see her sitting by herself crying. Me being the nice person that I am, I sit down and talk to her for the next 40 minutes to make her feel better. I succeed, but in the back of my mind I knew that this act of simple kindness would backfire in my face, as a lot of things do. She starts talking to me more and more, and finally asks for my MSN. I give it to her (how can you say no to that). She starts talking to me EVERY SINGLE TIME I go online, for the WHOLE TIME I'm online. Though it was very annoying, I tried to not let it get to me. Then she starts telling me all her problems with her family and shit, and I try to help out. Couple days go by, and now my ex is trying to hook me up with this bitch. She starts asking me why I can't give her a chance and all this bullshit. I'm not even going to go into all the reasons, or conversations I've had about this matter. In the end, I pretty much told her to stop talking to me.

Today, my ex starts talking about her, with 2 other people, and me, saying how mean I am to her. I tell her I'm not, and explain that she's very annoying. The French girls friend is in the class too, and overhears all of this. Tells the French girl that I'm talking about her, and making fun of her in front of all my friends. I don't even like the other 2 girls that were in the conversation, and neither did I want to talk about what was being discussed. So great, now she thinks I told everyone all her "secrets" and told everyone what she told me. Which is so fucking untrue. So now this just angers the shit out of me, so my asshole senses start tingling, so I just tell the girl that I said no shit about her, and told her to fuck off. There's more arguing and shit, but I could write a novel about all this bullshit, so I can just leave out the more minor shit.

So that's the latest chapter of the life of Adrenaline. Throughout all this shit though, amazingly I've kept my head up the past couple of days. I haven't been drowning in my sorrow, which I was doing the past week. So instead of being ashamed for being an asshole to a couple people, I'm feeling pretty damn good about everything. Funny how that works.

/rant

#2 (permalink)

Wow. I'm guessing you are a freshmen because that is a lot of drama. Your ex seems like an over-dramatic bitch, which reminds me of my ex, lol. Your ex clearly still has feelings for you but is letting her friends and family make the decision not to date you for her. Which shows that she cares more about what her friends think, then what she thinks. I say forget that chick and find someone else.

As for the French girl, is she hot? Because if she is, I would put up with all of her ranting about her problems at home as long as I "got" something out of it. Haha.

Good luck with everything man. Keep us updated.

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Oh yeah, I'm a niner lmao. My ex is kinda like that, but when she's not all up in her drama queen shit, she's the most perfect girl I have ever met in my life.

Frenchy, naa she's not hot. That's the thing, I don't even want to tap that. Plus I'm done with over dramatic relationships, unless it's with my ex cause I know how perfect it could be. Other than that, I'm just hooking up with any hot bitch that comes around.

So are you saying, that as we get older this drama settles down? I always thought the drama just went up as you proceeded through your high school life?

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No. No way. I'm a frosh, but I'm friends with a lot of upperclassmen. I can definitely tell there is more drama in our grade.

People are more mature when you get to be older, so they handle it better I think.

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Im a Sophmore and I can say that the drama level decreases over time.

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damn thats kinda gay man, well hope that works out for ya

I don't know what to say about the French girl, but if you really like your ex as much as you say you do then you will keep trying to be with her.

oh and yeah I kinda wish I wasn't a freshman, so much fucken stupid pointless drama around, and I have a lot of upperclassmen friends and it seems like theres a lot less drama going on with them, but then again sometimes theres more......

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Yeah the drama dies down a lot as you move up.

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i'd have to say that as you get older and go up in grade level you're gonna have the same amount of drama but you'll deal with it differently. Like after a while (in my case) you just say "fuck this" and just get on with your life. If you can be happy single do it. Cuz A) it'll make things just dandy, no need to be tethered down by only one of the twats in your grade and B) school is a lot easier. And C) just laugh at your friends who go through shit with girls.

BUT::: i'm not saying dont avoid it. girls are still by far the best distraction from school God has invented. Never deny a possible relationship that could return dividends at your end alright???

k cool.

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junior= no drama. drama isnt hard to avoid...

anyway, drop the ex, as hard as it might be, because she is no good to you, and there are other girls.

Drop the ex.

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Play it again jack and then rewind the tape
And then play it again and again and again
Until ya mind is locked in
Believin' all the lies that they're tellin' ya
Buyin' all the products that they're sellin' ya
They say jump and ya say how high
Ya brain-dead
Ya gotta fuckin' bullet in ya head
Just victims of the in-house drive-by
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Yeah the whole less drama thing makes sense, I guess I just never really thought about it, and just assumed.

As for the French girl. I went all day without talking to her. I saw her, and just looked away, as did she. Hopefully she'll just leave me alone.

As for my ex, I did give up on her. I'm not trying to get her back. I'll take the chance if it comes, but I'm not forcing it. Neither am I looking for any more relationships, with any other girls. Like someone said above, girls are great, you just can't let em get to you. I did, but don't regret it. I had the best time in my life with her, and I learned shit that I would be dead without later on. But now, I don't need any more harsh life lessons learned through getting shit piled on you.

My school flooded today. It was a pretty shitty day. I blazed up a blunt at lunch with some people, failed to make plans, made the mistake of staying for 3'd period, and just came home 4th. I fucking hate winter.